What is next?
This is my second ever blog post, and I seem to be writing up every time I feel my life is messy. I have made conceptually progress since the previous one, and I have set the values by which I value myself. Amongst these are: being kind and loving to friends and family, being appreciative of what I have, positive about the future and everyday life. These are stable things I can rely on and do not change every other day. What is still difficult for me is to be unaffected by other people's actions. For example, the fact that currently, I haven't gotten an offer for a Ph.D. where I am at has sparked emotions of anger inside me. I guess in the end, I did put expectations into me being here and that is why I feel bummed. I need to be better at: 1) Not having expectations from anyone, 2) Work on what I want, 3) Don't be afraid to say no to friends. The future is wide open, but that is for the best. I want to play the long game. I will not appease the status quo....